Introduction

This was something that really hit home for me and I thought it was more then appropriate that it is included in the first post of this new journey.

I don't know how many times that I have attempted to try this whole aspect of blogging and literally seem to throw in the towel within a few entries instead of actually following through. 

It seems that it was a hard thing to do since most of my previous "blogs" seeming were almost done in a journal fashion and in all honesty just seemed whiney and a whole bunch of poor me garbage. 

Though let's be extremely cliché of course the start date of this particular one is on New Year's eve of 2023.

The last few years haven't been the easiest to say the very least. There has been a lot of pain and loss, challenges that continually presented themselves, and the list goes on.

Even with all of that being said, it has been a year of significant personal growth for myself. This is what is leading me to start this again and see if my passion for writing is still there.

There have been many individuals in my life who have recommended me to use my affinity with words to continually use that creative energy. In all honesty I am not sure what the format of this will turn into but that's the mystery and anticipation of beginning a new project.

I am not one in making new year resolutions. This has a lot to do with the fact that every time, or almost every time, those goals are made they are forgotten or not met. 

As a kid it was always a conversation between friends and family asking "what are you wanting to accomplish in the next year?" Sometimes it was landing a new job that made you happy and could have more money. Other years it was getting a new car or apartment. I am sure that you can see the pattern.

This year is really simple. It's continuing to get up every morning, and simply trying to be a better person then I was the following day. To be able to learn something new and continue to grow as a person. Share that knowledge and love with my children and hope to mold them into the wonderful, kind, tiny humans I can.

There have been some relationships and friendships that have been lost over the years. There are the special few that no matter the circumstances they have prevailed and been somehow maintained. Now let's face it, there are months of radio silence at times and then picking back up as if no time has passed.

The importance of these relationships have been brought into light for me, especially over the last couple of years. Being that person that makes the time and effort to reach out more often but this is also a two way street. There are so many times that people will fade out of our lives when it could have just taken a phone call or a designated day once of month just to be able to take a breath. 

Though on the opposite side of the spectrum there are the people that suck the energy out of you. These are the people who expect you to drop everything for whatever issue that they are dealing with. It gets to a point where you life is so focused on them that you loose yourself. That right there is something that I can relate to more then I care to admit. Just because you want to "help" or try and "save" someone you see as a friend, doesn't mean that you will be able to. It usually leads to loosing your own identity and not taking care of the people and things important to you. 

It is so incredibly hard for myself to see someone struggle, and I am the first person who wants to rip the shirt off my back to help and it has burnt me so badly. As hard as it was I have been able to gradually let go of these individuals. Does this mean I don't care about their well being, absolutely not. What it does mean is that I am only human and one person. I am not able to accept responsibility for everyone's actions and lives. Just my own.

With all that being said, it makes me even that more excited to progress into this upcoming year and see what new adventures await.

I will do my best to bring you along for that journey.